Drunken Ramblings

Standing in the dark,
and wishing I could see.
Looking for the lives,
that could have been me.
I wish for my future,
yearn for my past.
Searching for a dream,
that can finally last.
My life is a vortex,
of regret, and of shame.
Trudging through days,
that all feel the same.
Feeling all the feelings,
that I've felt before,
and always I'm hoping
to find something more.
Perhaps one day,
I'll get where I'm going,
and find my place,
without ever knowing,
of my troubles and strife,
the hardships of life,
and simply be me,
so I can once again see.